"Please God tell me you're listening. Please God tell me you hear" were the words I whispered to myslf early In the morning as I did everything I could to keep the tears from rolling down my face.
Those words were out of pure frustration, anger, and confusion. What am I suppose to do? What does God expect from me? These thoughts kept going on and on in my head.
My daddy reached out to check on me as he always does and I told him my concerns, my worries. I questioned why God hasn't changed my situation. He simply texted back and said "He is working OT. Start trusting, stop doubting. That is your first test"
It couldn't of been more true. Here I am doubting the God who created the stars and the moon. The almighty who breathed life into me. He has suffered more than a couple of heart aches and emotional break downs.
I'm not a love expert so I don't know much about relationships but I do know the foundation to a strong and successful one is first and formost, trust, with communication following right after.
The same thing goes for God. You have to trust your partner. God is your life coach, your business partner, your financial investor. I've questioned my struggle more times than none, but I shouldn't. You shouldn't question what was meant for you.
When a train goes through a tunnel, it doesn't shut down, The conductor doesn't encourage the passengers to jump off. Instead they are gently reminded the end of the tunnel is near, and the light will soon be shining through!
It was once said that the teacher is often quiet during the test. I've found this to be hard but very helpful. If the teacher talked to me throughout the test, how could I ever have the confidence to know I have what it takes to pass?
See, It's not that God isn't here with us and it's not that he isn't watching. It's that he trusts us more than we trust ourselves.
He knows he has given you the strength and the knowledge to overcome all hurdles and obstacles you may have to jump over. He trusts you. So you need to trust you.
Sometimes I feel like I don't have what it takes or I am not capable of certain things but even in the midst in all the chaos, I know that isn't true.
Just the other day I was having one of my moments while I was at work. I was flustered. I went to a leader. My leader. My inspiration.
I was given a few words I am able to hold onto when my days get cloudy.
She said to me "I rely on you greatly"
I wasn't expecting that because she is a lady of few words. But Those words boosted me back up and I was able to shake the negativity I was feeling.
If there is ever a time you feel low, I promise you God hasn't gone anywhere. He hasn't left you. He hasn't forgotten about you. His promises are too great for any of that.
He sees the mountain you are climbing. He knows you are struggling. But he also sees what we cannot see. The top. Keep climbing. Keep going. Keep trying. You have everything you need to succeed.
"He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20