I asked my mom this question. "What do you do when you are saved but living in sin?" You know, when your old life tries to sneak it's way back and pretend like it's you, when really it isn't. If I sat here and told you that I always lived my life according to God's ways I wouldn't be considered truthful, and Although some parts of my story isn't pretty they are all necessary. You don't skip chapters in a book or leave during the middle of the movie just because you don't like how it's going. My mom has never judged me. She's only loved me and supported me so ofcourse her answer was what I needed to hear. She answered with these words, "You will always stay stuck unless you make a decision to overcome". The truth is, I am still human and the devil tries to pick my flaws, insecurities, and past to make a problem. Which most of the time I can fight him off but sometimes it's just not as easy. There are days I don't have enough energy to say my name much less go battle the devil in combat. His tactics and skills are tricky. As a person who was saved at a young age and has loved Christ since I can remember, I have learned that Jesus doesn't expect you to be perfect. He took care of that for me. Thousands of years ago. I've also learned that I am forgiven. & I will not allow the enemy to make me forget that. Jesus wants me to learn from my wrong doing, so I can teach others and help them through theirs. There is nothing I can do to make Christ love me any more or any less than he does right now. So, that guilt you have, from two years ago or even yesterday, get rid of it. You are forgiven!! Jesus doesn't condemn, he convicts!! He doesn't turn his back on you because you weren't thinking properly or had a moment of weakness in your flesh. But he does require you to learn. Some of my best lessons so far have come from pain and heartache. Sounds silly huh? I didn't know it then but I wouldn't be who I am this very moment without all of those difficult times. God was preparing me for things I wasn't able to see. His rejection was actually preparation for better things to come. Thankfully I know that now. Sometimes we go through things just because of our sin. Sometimes we go through things to show others what not to do. God has a purpose in all things. When you take coal and put it completely to it's test, you put it under pressure and stress, the result is greater. You get a diamond! Seriously though, how crazy is it that you get something so special out of something so average. I think I just hit a point here. We are average on our own but with God's love and discipline, we shine brighter than we ever thought possible. You can withstand more than you ever imagined. Ladies & fellas, you are a diamond. You've been scratched up, scuffed up, and look at you still shining. The stress, the frustration, or whichever emotion you have on speed dial, do not allow it to intervene! God is our "car wash", allow him to cleanse you and make you brand new again.